Sunday, January 9, 2011

Slacker or Sulker

I'm a slacker.  Today, I am a slacker.  It feels like forever since I've been to church.  In reality, I'm there most every Sunday, but this Christmas season, I rarely made it to morning service or stayed for evening service.  One Sunday I was out of town visiting my mother.  Christmas weekend, I had some kind of bug and before then my sinuses were totally out of wack which meant I was TIRED.  It took all of me to make it through the work week so by the time Sunday came around, I was physically done. 
I do go to choir practice, and I did make it to the Children's Christmas program.  I did make it last week.  I had nursery and got to play w/ two cute babies!!  :o)
But during Sunday School last week, we made the decision to disband.  I kind of knew it was coming.  We've lost four families.  Three I know have gone on to other churches.  One family, I'm thinking they have gone on to another church, but I'm not sure.  Their daughter is very active with golf, so they are gone a lot of weekends.  Our teacher is wonderful.  He's a middle school history teacher, so he knows how to keep you interested.  He gives us all this wonderful background that I would never have figured out on my own and applies a great devotion to each lesson.  He and his wife have two children.  One is three and one is just a few months old.  They both teach 40 miles away from home (her to the east of town and him to the south).  So I don't blame him for being overwhelmed and preparing lessons for a shrinking class surely couldn't help that overwhelming feeling. 
I must admit.  This is one of the main reasons why I didn't go to church today.  But with everything else going on, I feel like a slacker.  Or maybe, a "sulker" would be a better way to describe it.  I'm having a little bit of a pity party I believe.  I didn't want those other families to move to another church, I didn't want our class to disband. 
But it's not about what I want or what I think others should do.  It's not all about ME!  (my husband will read this and think: "It's about time she realize that")  HA!
So, I should really get myself out of this funk, realize it's not all about ME, but about my relationship with God.  I know there are other Sunday School classes out there that will be right for me.  Other families to get to know better. 
I should start tonight, after choir, stay for Church Service...  even though it's business meeting night...  ;o)
John 14:27

Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.

1 comment:

Irritable Mother said...

It's hard to remember sometimes that it isn't "all about ME". I feel your pain, sister! *wink*
Ahhhh. John 14:27. I think I'll write that one down to carry around with me today!